amberrob

so this is what i accomplished at work today... i put words to the song i've been meaning to for like a month now.

-sugar is sweet, but not for you-

down down, your doing down again. the only ones who kick you are your friends. and she said, that your all wrong, its too far gone and i hope you choke on your last waking breath.
and you will see that what you did to me, its not alright and i won't be ok.this just might be your last chance for all eternity.
down down, I'm falling down again. this seems more like a train wreck, your love.. its like razors cutting across my eyelids. sugar sweet lips that i want to kiss, they whisper softly, spelling out such sweet death.

so will you just go-
this is not the way i want to be. never laughing, never stopping to see the self inflicted violence and open wounds of everything that makes you happy. so keep your knife drawn. just stop.

just stop and you will see, that what you did to me, is not alright and i wont be ok. your not the only one, who now is too far gone that the only thing that matters is all wrong.

first off id just like to say that this is a personal entry and it probably wont make sense-


well, honestly i feel like shit again. i feel like my life is going nowhere, im fucking up everything i do, and no matter what i do i cant seem to be able to get ahead. i know im just mindlessly bitching right now but i need to. I am swarmed with so many different emotions right now i dont know how to make sense of them all. im confused, hopeful, and i feel pretty betrayed... all for reasons that i dont really want to get into. i dont know how im gonna get over this one...

Your #1 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #2 Match: ENTP

The Visionary You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression. You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything. Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off. You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments. You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

Your #3 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #4 Match: ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Your #5 Match: INTP

The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.

wow... that was the longest test EVER. i cant believe that shit. it was pretty easy though so i think i did good... we'll see soon enough.

so i finally changed my screen name. seemslikeautumn so yea... remember it bitches!!

its time for one of those personal entries...


you know, looking back at my life recently, i've realized that i dont take time to apreciate the truly simple joys of life. tonite i read something really profound that just made me realize all of this. and i've been doing a lot of thinking lately. i've had a month to think and rearrange my life. its the kind of thinking you do late at nite when nobody's up and everything just seems to fall into perspective so easily. so yea im sorta stealing the idea for this next part... sorry. maybe this will start a little trend. that would be cool... you know just a cut through the BS look at yourself. so here it is. me... un-cut...

-My name is Robert Christopher Faulstich, however most people call me Rob or Robbie (a select few :-) ) if you call me robert i probably wont answer.
-Music is an inseperable part of my life. it is how i express myself, and if you want to see deep into my thoughts, look closely at my music. its all right there
-There's nowhere on the plannet that i'd rather be than the beach on any given night.
-According to most people im a hopeless romantic. i call it finding a meaningful relationship where both people continuously make the other want to be a better person.
-i enjoy being alone once in a while. it gives you a good chance to reflect on everything and just relax
-my friends along with my self determination are what keep me going. without the support of good friends and good people, i am nothing. i am good at hiding my weaknesses... they are good at exposing them and i will watch out for all my friends until the day i die.
-i can have a little bit of a temper once in a while :-) if someone really pisses me off ( which usually takes a lot) its best not to be around me for a little bit
-i hate dissapointment. any promise i make, i will keep
-i would never tell a secret that someone has confided in me.
-to keep things interesting its fun to just go all out sometimes. be crazy, loud, wild... even a little bit obscene. just get out and have fun. thats what life is all about. if you dont have fun doing something, theres no point in doing it.
-every so often i just get in a really bad mood. not for any particular reason... it just happens and i really cant explain it.
-and sometimes i can be quite shy
- by the way.. i love winter. and new york. and the christmas season. it just doesnt get any better


so theres just a little part of me. those are just some things that i've been thinking about/come to terms with lately.


...enjoy the show



quote of the day: "theres no point in trying to be something your not because you probably suck at it" -me

ok so is just me or is that a really wierd succession of events? because according to this,assuming that this is just one, maybe even a first date, im supposed to take cassie to a five star restaurant, bob for apples, move in toegther, tell her i love her and then there is a 97% chance that we will have sex. to me thats just really the most random date ever... geez and talk about moving fast! lol



so yea, work was cool tonite... i cant believe gregg made a fucking fort in the back this morning, i wish i saw the look on his face when jessica walked in. haha wow i love that kid. on another note, my new revised bass rig is amazing. i looooovveeee my amp and new cab and everything .. its sooo sweet. everything else is kinda boring. so yeah im gonna go to bed now because i feel like shit. good nite everyone :-)

why does my life have to suck so much? whatever ... not much i can do about it now.
-grounded for 2 more weeks.. gay

-on the bright side of things im getting my second bass cab tomorrow GK RBH-410... sweet! and cassie is going to come and kidnap me... also sweet lol. god i need to get out of this house.

im not sure what i did to deserve all this, my parents just want be to be their robot or something. i really dont care anymore, im just gonna live with whatever they want and deal with the shit.... but most importantly im going to live. im not going to let them do whatever it is they are trying to do ( i really dont know what their motives are for this.. but im sure in their mind its to help me) its just a really wierd situation. but yea, im just going to live for myself, do what makes me happy, and spend good quality time with my REAL friends- the people who matter most to me, and i cant thank you all enough for the endless support and always being there for me. i really really really really miss you all sooooooooo much

well enough whining from me for one night.

-Rob

14 days and counting

well, im sitting here in the library for the wonderful mr. kaisers history class (cant you tell how excited i am to be here?!) i cant believe we're back in school. i just wanna go home and see all my friends and just chill again. Im so sick of school. i really just wanna get back to band practice and get that whole thing going again playing shows and just kicking everyones ass in the music scence and get huge. i have a lot of respect for everyone in bands, but i know that we're gonna take off this time. we totally have what it takes to make it and now its time to just get going.

so the trip to NY/Boston was amazing. i went snowboarding and saw some family as well as checking out some schools up there. Ithaca was cool as was oswego where the sunset was the most amazing thing i've ever seen. then boston was really sweet too and i really like berklee... i definately could see myself there .(hopefully my band will get signed and i wont have to go to school) but i definately would love to go to berklee. the school is amazing and you just get to be totally immersed in music... gotta love it. well my teachers about to walk this way.. i'll see you all later. :-)

tragedy of a superhero


one minute your fine, just all right getting by so you can go out all night. unstoppable. unbeatable. you never thought this was your kryptonite.

and when thet ball drops, the times that you fall off, theres always someone to catch you for now. this time its different... this is not a game. this terrible tragedy is not all the same.
1:53 and the clocks ticking away... you wonder if this will be your last day. this is the only way. i guess its right for someone to say your guardian angel didnt want you to die today.

sirens are screaming, lights burning. your ok but you know that just wont pass by. your scared, cold, dead, and dont know whats going on in your head. cant see anything, blocked out of memory, but that never stopped your conscience from screaming.

and as you stand still in time, the lights will shine through and you cant see any stars through the cloudy sky. take back all your lies and make it right to put your life in line.

cold sky, broken night you know this is your last time. never a repeat, oh no not again and now your only worries are to save all your friends. be glad you made it through... now you know no one can kill you and you push and fight, cuz you know that your right and your going to make it this time.